A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar 
They’re worth so much more after I’m a goner
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’ 
Funny when you’re dead how people start listenin’

It was weird for Liam, seeing Niall’s body in this state. The Irish boy was breathing, technically still alive, but it sure didn’t look like it. He looked damaged, fragile. Liam didn’t dare to leave Niall alone though, Liam was praying for a miracle, even though there was so little hope, Liam didn’t want to give up on Niall.

“Isn’t it better if I just go?” Niall asked the angel. The angel shook her head, “Look at that boy down here, he loves you, he’s praying for you to come back to him.” she spoke. She took Niall’s hand and started to walk with him. “Look at those other kids, walking into the hospital, for you.” Niall looked and saw Zayn, Harry and Louis. “They never cared when I was still alive.” Niall protested. “You just didn’t notice, and you kinda are alive at this very moment.” The angel smiled at Niall. She flew to another place in heaven, and Niall could see his family, crying and hurt. “You wouldn’t want to hurt them more, would you?” The angel asked kindly. Niall shook his head, “I wouldn’t.” he softly said. “See it’s not your time yet.” The angel smiled and Niall nodded. Then he slowly woke up….

“You’re alive.” Liam smiled when he saw Niall’s eyes open slowly. “It wasn’t my time yet.” Niall smiled back. He heard the angel’s voice one last time, “exactly.” she said, sounding warmly and nice. Niall took Liam’s hand. “I wanted to ask you something tonight.” Niall started. Liam smiled at him, “ask away.” he said, he couldn’t be happier Niall was alive. “will you be m boyfriend?” Niall asked shyly. Liam kissed the blonde gently. “yes.” he smiled. 

It will be mainly Zayn, with small hints of niam and larry, and the subject is on eating disorders. It’s called starving for perfection.

Harry held me tightly. I heard him say my name. It sounded so beautiful. I looked at him, he was so gorgeous. I loved him so much. He made me feel so amazing. Harry kissed me. “I love you Niall.” he said.

“W-will he be okay?” Harry asked crying. The doctor sighed. ‘He is in a coma, and right now it doesn’t seem like he’s going to wake.” Harry looked shocked and the other boys swallowed. “It’s as if he doesn’t want to, as if the place where he feels like he is now is better.” the doctor added. Then the doctor walked away. “Can you leave me alone with Niall for a bit?” Harry asked. The lads nodded and left the hospital room. “Hey buddy how are you?” Harry said. “I am so angry at myself right now, I should’ve stayed with you.” the curly haired boy said, a tear falling Niall’s face. “I don’t even like that girl. There’s someone else I like.” Harry stroked Niall’s face. “right now he’s in a coma.” Harry cried, “and it’s my fault, cause I had to be so damn stupid.” 

“I love you Niall.” Harry said, like he had so many times. “I love you too.” I said and we kissed more passionatly then ever before. “We should get married.” Harry said. I smiled and nodded. “let’s do it right now.” Harry smiled. And so we did.

4 weeks later…

“Niall please wake up, I love you Niall, I love you.” Harry said desperatly. “You are slowly fading away from us, from me and I can’t stand it.” harry cried, like he had ever since that night. “You can’t just do that, you have to come back to us, I wonder what’s so amazing that keeps you away, cause I want you to come back, we all do.” Harry said holding Niall’s hands.

“Niall.” Harry said, his voice very serious. “Yes Harry?” I replied. “You have to go back, back to reality.” he said. “but I don’t want to.” I protested sadly. “Niall you have to.” Harry said desperatly. I bit my lip, Harry went on talking. “Niall please wake up, I love you Niall, I love you.You are slowly fading away from us, from me and I can’t stand it.” Harry was suddenly crying. You can’t just do that, you have to come back to us, I wonder what’s so amazing that keeps you away, cause I want you to come back, we all do.” Harry was holding my hand and all of a sudden I was in a hospital bed, slowly opening my eyes…

“Niall your awake!” Harry smiled. Niall nodded. “I need to tell you something.” Harry said. “Do tell” Niall said, with a dry troath. “I love you.” Harry said, not having let go of Niall’s hand. “I love you too.” Niall smiled, maybe his dream had become reality. Harry softly kissed Niall until the doctor walked inside with the other lads and Niall’s parents. The boys blushed deeply. “How many times have I told you to watch out when you cross the streets?!” Niall’s mom sighed. Niall bit his lip and hugged his parents. “sorry.” he mumbled. Harry resisted the urge to tell it was his fault, he’d save it for later. “We’ll have to run some tests.” the doctor said. Niall nodded. “will it take long?” Niall asked. The doctor shook his head. 

“So are we togheter now?” Niall asked when he was released of the hospital a week later. “If you want to.” Harry said shyly. “I want to.” Niall smiled and took Harry’s hand. Togheter they walked to the car that picked them up. On the way home they shared kissed and everything seemed perfect.

Because sometimes reality is better than my dreams.

-the end-

Harry loved how he and Niall just fitted togheter perfectly. He loved the way Niall never had to try and still was amazing. The way Niall took away his breath whenever they went on a date, or just in general. Harry loved the way Niall looked, and he loved his personality. Harry loved how Niall accepted him for who he was and never tried to change him. Everything was so natural between the two boys. 

“What are you thinking about?” Niall asked as he hugged Harry from behind and pressed a kiss on Harry’s neck. “about you.” Harry said softly. Niall turned Harry around and hugged him. “I hope it’s positive.” he grinned. “I can’t think negative about you cause it’s just not possible, you are perfect.” harry laughed. Niall shook his head. ‘for the ten millionth time I’m not perfect.” Niall sighed. “Yes you are.” Harry smiled. “you are a silly boy Harry Edward Styles.” Niall giggled then he sat down on the kitchen counter. Harry pressed a kiss on Niall’s lips and started to cook dinner. This was basicly how they spend their evenings off, togheter, Harry cooking, Niall watching him, laughing togheter about the silliest things, giving each other a kiss in between everything. “What are you making?” Niall asked. “Just plain simple spaghetti.” Harry shrugged. “Mhm…I like your spaghetti.” Niall smiled. Harry blushed slightly. “Can I taste?” Niall asked and put some spaghetti on a spoon. He brought it up to Niall’s mouth and Niall ate it. “Fucking delicious!” Niall exclaimed. Harry kissed Niall passionatly and then went back to his cooking. “Louis came up with this really weird pick up line today.” Niall said. “Really? what was it?” Harry smiled. “Are you a cookie cause you look delicious.” Niall giggled. “weirdo.” Harry laughed. 

“Did you enjoy your dinner?” Harry asked softly. Niall nodded and hugged Harry tightly. “A lot.” he smiled. Harry bit his lip. “I wrote you a song.” Niall stated. Harry blushed, “Will you play it for me?” he asked. Niall nodded and got his guitar. “Just a bit though.” he said and started to play.

What do you say when you can’t look down
When you feel like you’re ten feet off the ground
What do you do when you’re on the edge
Now you’re here and you got me thinking ’bout

Parachutes and airplanes
Thinking about
Parachutes and airplanes
We’ll never hit the ground

‘Cause life gets hard sometimes
And I just need a place to get away
So turn the world around
I’m never coming down
‘Cause I don’t ever wanna hit the, wanna hit the ground

“Did you like it?” Niall asked shyly. Harry nodded and smiled. Niall put down his guitar and hugged Harry. “Let’s lay down for a while.” he suggested. Harry nodded and the boys layed down on the couch, close to eachother, not saying a word.

a/n: the song is parachutes and airplanes by david archuletta. 

“It’s beautiful out here.” Niall smiled excited. Harry bit his lip and sighed relieved. “Honestly it’s like perfect.” Niall added. Harry slowly took Niall’s hand. “I wanna show you something else.” He said nervously. “Okay.” Niall smiled. 

Harry led his boyfriend to a waterfall. “Niall?” he asked. “yes Harry.” Niall said. “We’ve been through a lot togheter.” Harry started, his words no more or less than true, they couple had their ups and their downs. They’d been through hatred and pain, and had complete and utter love. They had their troubles in the past but they got past all that. “You taught me a lot of life lessons and you made me a better person and I am so blessed to have you, it makes me so happy and I love you so so much.” Harry started to shake a little, “I just want you to know that Niall and I want to ask you something and I won’t be surprised if you say no but uhm yeah…” Harry went down on one knee. Niall swallowed, was Harry really going to ask what he hoped Harry would ask him. “Will you marry me?” Harry asked. “no” Niall joked. Harry looked hurt and stood up. ‘Just kidding, you fool, would you really think I’d say no after all this time.” Niall smiled and kissed Harry passionatly. Harry smiled. “You had me scared there for a moment.” Harry sighed, once again relieved. “I got you a ring.” he mumbled, getting it out of his pocket. Niall smiled, happy tears forming in his eyes. Harry shoved the ring on Niall’s finger carefully. Niall put his head on Harry’s chest. “I love you.” he smiled. “I love you too.” Harry said holding Niall tightly. 

Okay, the thing with this one shot is, there’s reality, and there’s Niall’s dream. When there’s ‘reality’ I’ll type in normal, when it’s Niall’s dream, I’ll type in cursive. This entire thingy will be in two p.o.v’s, reality will be written in third person, and Niall’s dream will be in Niall’s p.o.v - Ruby

“Where are you going?” Niall asked when he saw Harry putting on his coat. “Oh I met some girl.” Harry shrugged lightly. Niall pretented that those words didn’t hurt him and smiled. “Oh great.” the blonde said. Then he watched Harry walk away. Niall heard the door slam loudly and looked out of the window. He sighed, then he saw Harry walk up to an in his opinion slutty girl and watched them share a kiss. Niall layed down on his hotel bed and felt the tears stream down his face. He shut his eyes tightly and waited until he fell asleep.

Harry held my hands and placed a soft kiss on my lips. It made me feel all fuzzy and warm. “You’re beautiful.” Harry said to me. I protested and then he kissed me again. “You are.” Harry smiled. I smiled back. He made me so happy. “I love you.” I said. “I love you too.” Harry said warmly. 

Niall opened his eyes. He heard footsteps coming near him. “You alright man?” he heard Harry’s voice. “Yeah ofcourse I am.” Niall said, deep inside he was glad Harry cared about him, even it was just a little. “Really cause your eyes are all red and puffy.” Harry stated. “Yeah man I’m fine, so how was it with that girl.” Niall said, trying his hardest to let the last part come out nicely. “Oh we’re dating.” Harry said. “G-great.” Niall faked a smile. “Well I am going out tonight so I guess you’ll have our room to your own.” Harry said, leaving again. Niall bit his lip and closed the door because Harry forgot. “You could hang out with the other lads.” a voice in Niall’s head said, but Niall didn’t want to, he just wanted to be with Harry. 

Niall stared at the ceiling, he was laying on Harry’s bed, and he couldn’t fall asleep. He wondered if all this pain would make him stronger. Or if it was just killing him slowly. Niall let out a deep sigh and let his mind drift to a place far away, creating a different reality, a better one.

I kissed Harry. We were walking through the snow hand in hand. We had just told the boys we were togheter and they were all fine with it. I wondered if I could become luckier than this, probably not. I am dating the boy of my dreams, the most perfect guy alive and he calls me beautiful. It’s really amazing.

Harry wrapped his arm around my waist. “Je t’aime.” he whispered in my ear. “I love you too.” I whispered back. We kissed again. It was all so perfect.

It was all so perfect, Niall thought, if only it were real. Niall stood up and walked outside. It wasn’t as if he didn’t see the car coming towards him, he just didn’t care. The last thing Niall heard was Harry’s voice screaming his name. Then he went back to dreaming…

TBC

“….and he’s so cute.” Niall said happily. Harry faked a smile, he liked that Niall was so happy and in love, he just wished he was the one Niall was in love with, the one that made the irish boy so happy. But no, Niall didn’t see him that way, all Niall’s eyes could see was Louis. Niall meant the world to Harry but he just didn’t know.

“His eyes are perfect in this picture.” Niall smiled brightly, pointing to a picture he took of Louis earlier that day “Or actually they are in general.” Harry faked another smile. Harry saw Louis entering the kitchen. “hey Lou.” He greeted. “Hello Harry.” Louis said, not noticing Niall at first. “Hey Louis.” Niall shouted. Louis ran up to Niall and hugged him, “Sorry,” he said, “I didn’t see you.” Niall blushed. “is alright.” he mumbled softly. Louis ruffled Niall’s hair. “you should talk a little louder, or else I don’t know what you say.” Niall giggled. Harry bit his lip sadly and left the room.

Harry hated that Niall didn’t see him. He hated that Niall liked Louis. He hated that Louis didn’t even know Niall the way Harry did, because ,according to Harry, if Niall was going to love him the eldest band member should atleast notice all the little things about Niall that made Niall so special.

“Harry?” Niall softly asked a few days later. “Yeah?” Harry replied grumphy. “Louis doesn’t like me.” Niall stated. Harry shrugged. “and I’d like to know why you are off with me.” Niall added. “cause Liam told me some things that you told him.” the irish boy said awkwardly. Harry sighed irritated. “well I am never telling him something again.” “Harry?” Niall softly said. “yes.” Harry sighed. “do you really love me? cause Liam kinda said that you kinda told me you kinda did.” Niall asked shyly. “Yes I do love you. But honestly, you don’t love me, so what the fuck does it matter?!” Harry replied, “you don’t even notice me. the last three months all you saw was Louis, and I kept on listening about how cute he was, and how perfect he was. And he didn’t even fucking know you, he couldn’t give a fuck about your feelings. I did, but I didn’t matter.” Harry added emotionally. Niall started to cry. “Harry!” he said frustrated. “what?!” harry said annoyed. Then he saw Niall was crying. He bit his lip. He wrapped his arms around Niall tightly. “I just wanted to tell you that I liked both of you.” Niall whispered, “and that I love you more than I loved Louis.” the irish boy added quietly. Harry wiped away Niall’s tears. “Sorry I made you cry.” Harry said, his own eyes were teared up as well. Niall softly kissed Harry. “it’s fine. I hurt you badly, so it’s only what I deserve.” the blonde boy stated. Harry kissed Niall back. Then the boys layed down on Harry’s bed and just cuddled for a while.

-the end-

Liam looked at his daughter. Trying on her wedding dress she looked so grown up. It hit Liam that he would definetely have to let her go of her. Surely she was in good hands, Louis and Eleanor’s son was a good guy, but it was hard. Destiny had been the only woman in Liam’s life after Danielle had died and now she’d be gone too.

“Doesn’t it look pretty?” Destiny asked excited. “It’s beautiful. You are beautiful, you look so much like your mother right now.” Liam smiled, tearing up. Destiny wrapped her arms around her dad. “I wish she could’ve seen me.” Destiny whispered. “I think she’s watching from up there.” Liam whispered back. Destiny bit her lip. “Would she be happy for me?” Destiny asked softly. Liam nodded, “She be so happy that you’ve found the one, she’d be proud of you as well.” he softly said. 

4 months later…

“Daddy?”  Destiny asked, it was in the middle of the night and within just a few hours Destiny would be getting married to Thomas. “Yes?” Liam said, a little tired. “I can’t sleep.” Destiny whispered in child-like voice, because although she was 21, she still talked like that sometimes. “Come here.” Liam said. Destiny layed her gead on Liam’s shoulder. “Daddy will you miss me?” Destiny asked. “A lot, but I guess I will just have to get used to you not being around as much as you used to.” Liam said slowly. “Could you play me our song?” Destiny asked softly. Liam got his guitar and started to play and Destiny started to sing,

You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

Destiny teared up, so did Liam. This song had always meant so much to them, and Liam exactly knew what the next few lines where. Both members of the Payne family found so much truth in this song,

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

Liam and Destiny smiled through their tears when Destiny sang the next lines. It felt so weird to Liam that soon she’d have someone else to sing her to sleep.

when I couldn’t sleep at night
Scared things wouldn’t turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Liam joined in and Destiny wiped away his tears. “It’s okay daddy.” she softly said.

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you’ll be
Can’t go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don’t you worry, hold on tight
I promise you that there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away
Flat your wings now you can’t stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Liam walked Destiny to the isle, there he handed her over to Thomas. He smiled proudly at his daughter. She got what she deserved. 

Butterfly fly away
We’ve been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

Am i obsessed with you?
I do my best not to want you
But I do all the time

2 p.m.

Louis was freaking out. All the boys had went to see their families, and although it had only been an hour, Louis already missed Niall so much. He resisted the urge to call his friend and went outside instead.

6 p.m.

Niall missed Louis, he missed all the lads, but he most definetely missed Louis the most. Although Niall was pretty loud himself it felt quiet without Louis. “Is something wrong dear?” Niall’s mom asked, “You’ve barely touched your food.” she added worried. Niall hadn’t even noticed the food, which was very unusual for him. “Just missing someone.” Niall admitted. Niall’s mom shook her head smiling and hugged Niall. “You’re in love aren’t you?” she said. Niall hadn’t even thought about that yet. Did he love Louis? The question didn’t leave his mind.

7 p.m.

Louis had just finished dinner and started to ask his mom advice, without actually telling her he was in love with his leprachaun friend. “Mom, see this friend of mine is in love with someone and he is like afraid to tell that person, what should he do?” Louis asked biting his lip. “Go for it Louis.” She smiled knowingly. “What? How did you find out?” Louis asked shocked. “Mothers know that sort of stuff.” Jay smiled. “Okay but you know what if that someone is like one of your best mates?” Louis asked scared. “Go for it Louis, you’ll never know if you never try.” Jay said and then she walked away. Louis let out a deep sigh.

7 p.m.

Niall layed on his bed. Was it creepy that he knew nearly everything about Louis? He sighed he felt like an obsessed stalker.  Niall had admitted to himself he loved Louis, but it wasn’t like he intented to.

9 p.m.

Louis decided that what he felt for Niall was complete and utter love. He layed on his bed and stared at his ceiling.

9.30 p.m.

call me xx Louis

9.45 p.m.

Niall kept staring at the text Louis send him. He wanted to call Louis, he really did, but he was so damn scared.

11 p.m.

Niall slowly fell asleep, still afraid to call his friend.

2 a.m.

Louis couldn’t take it anymore, if Niall wasn’t going to call him, he’d just call Niall. Louis just wanted to scream it from the rooftops “I am madly in love with Niall Horan and I think he’s perfect.” but Louis didn’t think his neighbours would like that around this hour. Louis waited for Niall to anwser. Niall didn’t.

3 a.m.

Louis called again, praying Niall would anwser. “wha?” Niall said. “look Niall I need to tell you some things.” Louis quickly said. “Okay.” Niall yawned. “First of all, sorry I woke you.” Louis started. Niall giggled “S’fine dude.” he said tiredly and all Louis could think was that it was so cute. “Seconable you are awesome.” Louis said biting his lip. “Thanks.” Niall said softly. “Thirdly I love you.” Louis said quickly.  “you sure?” Niall asked, suddenly wide awake. “Absolutely.” Louis said. “cool. I love you too.” Niall replied. Louis let out a relieved sigh. “I’ll call you tommorow.” Niall said. “yeah s’cool.” Louis said happily. “love you.” Louis said. “Love you too.” Niall said before hanging up.

6 a.m.

“So I’ll see you tommorow right.” Louis said on the phone (he was tired as hell because he hadn’t slept at all) “Yeah. Can’t wait.” Niall said excited. “I love you.” Louis said. “I love you more.” Niall replied. “I love you the mostest.” Louis laughed. “That’s not even a word.” Niall protested. “In my world it is.” Louis giggled (since when did he giggle, Louis wondered, it obviously had something to do with being in love). “Then it’s too in mine.” Niall said happily. “bye.” Louis said sadly. “bye.” Niall replied with an indentical tone.

9 a.m.

Louis had went out to buy tons of gifts for Niall, simply because he couldn’t choose what to give. Louis just wanted it to be special and amazing.

5 p.m.

“He’ll love it anyways.” Louis mom and sisters had told him still Louis was worried.

5 p.m.

“Just pick something already.” Niall’s brother said, getting a little annoyed with Niall’s tendency of checking a gift out and then deciding it wasn’t good enough. “Then what should I buy?” Niall asked. “I dunno stuffed animals, balloons anything like that.” Niall’s brother sighed. “cool.” Niall said.

6 p.m.

“What did you pick out.” Niall’s mom asked. Niall pointed to a few balloons and a huge stuffed teddy bear. “He’ll love it.” She smiled. “I hope so.” Niall softly said.

the next day, 10 a.m.

Niall ran up to Louis and hugged him tightly. “Hey.” he greeted happily. Louis just kissed him in response, receiving surprised looks from their band mates.”When did this happen?” Harry asked confused. Niall smiled, “3 a.m, tuesday.” Louis held Niall closely. “So are you two like boyfriends now?” Liam asked. “I think we are.” Louis said softly. “We are.” Niall said full confidence.

11 a.m

“I got you some presents.” Louis stated. “I got you some too.” Niall giggled. “nice.” Louis smiled. “Can I give mine first?” Niall asked. Louis nodded.

11.10 a.m.

“This is so awesome!” Louis said happily. Niall looked at the ground smiling. “But before I give you my present I need to tell you something.” Louis stated. Niall looked up. “do tell.” he said. “You, Niall James Horan, are amazing, incredible and perfect. I love the way you look, the way you smile, I love your accent, I love you for your talent. I just love you for you and I hope you never change.” Louis said smiling then he hugged Niall tightly. “you sure?” Niall said, a little emotional. Louis nodded. “absolutely.” he said. Then he and Niall started to giggle.

11.30 a.m.

“Your presents were better than mine.” Niall stated. “nope yours were.” Louis said and he kissed Niall before the Irish boy could protest.

- the end -